Updates 2007

Update November 2007
I am on a new medicine and it seems to be helping with NO side effects. Also - I am sleeping (mostly) and NO headaches. I am still struggling with food, but not nearly as much as the month from HELL. My GI track is getting better. Trying to get back to eating healthy and eating only at meal time. The biggest change that I have noticed (with new medicine) is that my "paralysis" seems to be waning. I am able to think of something and JUST DO IT rather than getting immobilized by all the other things that need done, or all the things that I haven't done in the past. I am not yet to the point of seeing the glass as half full, but I am only seeing ONE half empty glass instead of a sea of empty glasses - sort of - maybe I still see that all those other half empty glasses are there, but I can keep them a little more in perspective.

Update October 2007
Month from HELL. Psychiatrist was still trying to find right combination of medication - working hard to help me sleep and to have an interest in life. What I got - was an interest in food. I struggled with binging for an entire month - regained 10 lbs and was RAW emotionally and physically for 30 days while he worked to wean me off that one and on to another one.

Update September 2007
My original goal was 140 pounds. There was nothing particularly special about that number - it was 10 lbs higher than my "skinny" weight from the end of college. I picked it because that seemed reasonable.However, come to find out this time, I don't seem to do very well emotionally below 148 lbs.I am actually thinner at 148 lbs at age 46 than I was at 130 lbs in my 20's - my TONE is that much better.I am starting to build a wardrobe that I really like. I am working hard on the emotional/stability part of my life.So, I have decided to stay in the 148-152 lb range - indefinitely.Do I consider this getting to goal? - I don't know.I guess I think of it as staying happily where I am.

Update July-August 2007
If you are starting to wonder if this blog has anything to do with weight issues, you might want to look again. My therapist shared with me that she GETS more out of our sessions if they are based on my writing. I have gotten in the habit of e-mailing her posts. So, I am writing about things that might seem ODD at first glance. But, they're not. They are ALL related to weight loss/gain issues - mostly more so than food and exercise. . .

Update - April 2007
Early spring of 2007 - My weight was 145 pounds - I was 5 pounds from goal - and wasn't doing well - mentally or physically (If you are interested in reading about that - find April 2007 in my archives.). . . so, I made the decision to raise my weight a little - and purposely gained and then held at 150 lbs. This means a total loss of 65 pounds from my documented highest weight.